in reality, i dont know much about anything

vroom

2006-05-02T18:54:00.000-04:00

atlanta was an absolute blast. except the losing part. no nothing about that. supposedly this happens to delphi elite a lot, but it doesnt make it feel any better. good things did come out of it though, better plans for the years to come, very cool people that we met, possibly the most comfortable hotel i've stayed in and a renewed sense of determination about robotics. its a pity that we didn't accomplish more as a student. i'm always going to regret not having had the chance to walk onto einstein as an operator or driver, but i can take pride in the fact that someday we will make it so that the FLL people that I mentored will have that chance.

work seems boring, i swear my mom did the exact same thing that i am doing now before she retired. in fact, she arguably retired because of that same job. haha.

also it took nearly 24 hours to get back because the bus was shite and a westlane kid was panicking alot. thats one thing we have, hilarious kids. not weird in a creepy way, but weird in a hilarious way.

big plans for the summer anyone? i got rejected from the china trip so i may be considering going to taiwan? im not sure. but hey. dragonboat's starting soon. i still need more rest though.

oh my

2006-04-24T02:46:00.000-04:00

thanks so much for everything everyone. i've never gotten so much stuff at once!. i'll post more about it, but in the meantime atlanta in one day. but aaaaaaaaaagaiin. so much thanks to everyone :$

drumroll

2006-04-17T01:44:00.000-04:00

im done. finished on the 11th. 4 in 5 days wasnt that bad. let the good times roll?

also i need to eventually change sleeping habits if i want to work 9-5 without more bouts of narcolepsy hitting me. apparently being able to fall asleep with or without will isnt a problem. *mutters about driving*

always tired

2006-03-29T02:53:00.000-05:00

i managed to fall asleep in every class today. except macro, which was surprising.

anyways, this is more of a placeholder post, GTR up this week

(and no, i will not move on with my life esther, not with this at least =P)

fuzzy

2006-03-13T01:40:00.000-05:00

So yeah, Rochester was a ton of fun. It does feel very odd not to be doing the same kind of goof-ing off that I did as a student on trips like these. There is goof-ing off mind you, but not the same kind, not with the same kind of penalties either. Ours would be much worse.
There's a lot that remains to be done with the team. It feels quite weird. While on the team I dabbled in a bit of everything, working on the robot in a limited way, doing chairmans, a lot of PR especially at competitions, not so much scouting or strategy, but this time around it was different. I cant call myself a jack of all trades too much, but eventually thats what I would like to become. Someone that can be held up that way, but there's a lot more work to be done on my part. Right now the best thing that I do is probably talking up the team, to other teams, judges, people etc. Although I should be leaving that to the students for a true experience. But we'll see. I hope to see many more matches at Waterloo, with more chances for accurate scouting this time, but there will always be gut feelings about robots.

(I was also the mascot for a day. Its such a great mascot but you cant see out of it, at least they didnt figure out how to until after Goldie, Levon and Kevin had a turn. They were all much better =P)

Haloscan commenting and trackback have been added to this blog.

rochester

2006-03-08T18:04:00.000-05:00

gone to rochester for robotics again. its almost just like high school. almost.

back in 3-4

clickity clack

2006-03-06T03:53:00.000-05:00

i hope im not keeping my roommate up as i write this, but i cant stop sleeping late. its terrible but its force of habit now. but i still cant stay up all night either, nor do i want to.

linked to a ton of blogs on the side finally, after pressuring, but yeah if you want to be on there, or if i am acutally forgetting people go and tell me =P.

long discussion about knowing people and not knowing them anymore today, whether or not anything is going to change with exchange. bottom line is that nothing is concrete, whatever happens will, but you shouldnt accept anything as an eventuality, otherwise you'll be more inclined to act like it will and if its negative, more prone to letting yourself down.

FLR in 2ish.

I lost my YUcard =(

pulse continued

2006-03-03T04:44:00.000-05:00

yeah its a different day, but technically i've still been up.

its kind of shitty. but yeah.

on the upside, i did find a ton of new music. well not find, but at least listen to =P

pulse

2006-03-02T18:00:00.000-05:00

i love running in winter. but not really. i was damn tired but i decided to go for a run around york this afternoon. missed doing that. i love doing stuff like that. walking by myself, running by myself, going around anywhere by myself. maybe its an only child thing. i have to have music with me, any kind of music.

dont get me wrong, i love talking to people too, but this is probably just the introvert part of me it was damn worth it, but running in winter is very very different. only cause i slacked this week going to work out.

its going to have to be damn soon.

spin

2006-03-02T02:38:00.000-05:00

oh im well aware i seem to let school dominate my blog entries. im also well aware that ive posted a miraculous 2 days in a row now. maybe 3, i cant remember because im too lazy to tab back.

im also well aware that posting about robotics wont change the ridiculous nature of this blog, but hell it is that important to mention. and to that end. what a ridiculous looking robot. i hope it does well.

it looks like im just hanging on to another vestige of high school, but if you were involved, put simply, you would know. thats it.

turbulence

2006-03-01T02:18:00.000-05:00

what a tipsy turvy kind of day. econ midterm back, 88 with the curve. no idea how ridiculously happy i am to have gotten that mark. chinese was eh, but hopefully something else in the 70s.

a thought occurs to me, i look to this as an outlet, but whatever i do is under the realization that somehow somewhere it will be scrutinized, by people i know or dont know, by people i care or dont care about. but that in itself is just kind of like life. so its kind of like the idea that whatever you type out will be measured and with that knowledge, you change what you will type out to fit that. kind of like uncertainty principle but much less empirical. it seems kind of random to talk about, but that's what ended up happening.

spent a damn long time in doug's room tonight, like 5-6 hours, with adam, jenn, kathy and the like. founders isnt so bad with a single room, and not even that bad with a double. im not going to miss any of it, but looking back its really not been that bad, its almost everything i would have wanted out of university, without it being totally unrealistic.

its actually kind of funny, thinking in the back of my head that it could have been a reason, that every example as a kid shows that it would be a reason, but that i wouldnt be one to be thought of in that sense. yet it does seem to make more sense. now its just about what it'll be to see. theres not a time to rest or a reason to.

also, bahrain 2006 in like..2 weeks. damn son.

flutter

2006-02-24T11:00:00.000-05:00

it feels like an odd day today. last night my roommate ended up totally smashed and had to be taken to the hospital. i was in and out of the room watching munich over at kyle's which turned out to be a pretty good movie. it rekindled my love of reading that type of history, something that has been waning lately in the face of robotics and what not. long story short, ro ended up coming back to the room at 7am, since he got kicked out of the hospital after they detoxed him i guess.

in reality, i dont know if all that much has changed, but i guess thats what im born to play. for thet time being, probably just because of where i ended up.

i hope em & such come through for me today.

"well i was sitting, waiting, wishing you believed in superstitions, then maybe you'd see the sign"

purposeness

2006-01-22T01:41:00.000-05:00

do you know what you want to be in life, where you want to go, what you want to "be"?
ask a six year old and they would be more likely to answer than me right now.

i know that part of the process of "growing up" is finding out who you are, but what if thats not what you want to be,or what if you cant figure out who you are in the first place. then what do you do? do you have the courage to stand up and decide to try and change, or stay the course and develop into something that you may not be satisfied with. angst-ridden posts aside, theres no harm in thinking about it, as long as you have plenty to keep yourself occupied with anyways.

trezeguet will make my day. and ruin adam's when france plays england. (or anyone else for that matter)

some rather disheartening news about seven point five. we'll have to see how that goes. although that is part of the fun.

http://thespoke.net/blogs/canuckz/default.aspx --> old posting, switched over here

even newer post

2005-12-30T16:07:00.000-05:00

they werent exactly lying when they said that this would be the best time of your life, the most confusing time of your life and the plain oldsimple time of your life now were they?

in six months time i've seen a lot change, good, bad, its all there. but the same old remains the same, otherwise why would it be the same old? good, bad, its all there.

anyways, my plans for the holidays and catching up in reading have drowned in a sea of work (which although hilarious does acutally take up time) and general lack of effort on my part to do anything about it. i need to basically kick myself and go to the library. not that i dont like reading, i just have to kick myself to do anything these days.

new post

2005-09-12T22:27:00.000-04:00

link here?
http://thespoke.net/blogs/canuckz/default.aspx
comment here. its going to be a biatch.